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SHORT AUTOBIOGRAPHY:

Before I was born I had a dialogue with my guides and told them I did not want to incarnate.  They told me I had to, but when I was born I did not fully come into the body until months later and felt the horror of having a body I could not use.  My parents were extremely loving and that made the ordeal tolerable.  I knew then the difference between personality and individuality.  As a soul, I am the same individual no matter what reincarnational mask (persona) or personality I wear.

My sensitivity in those early years always troubled me as I oftentimes knew things about people, situations and events I did not want to know. I had unusual habits of staring at the sun or looking at clouds.  I have a grand trine in air signs which may explain those early excursions into aeromancy.  I also knew that the world scoffed at the paranormal.  It wasn’t until my first Saturn return in Cancer at the age of twenty eight that I finally learned how to master my sensitivity.  I began to know from where or from whom the messages or impressions were coming from. I finished college with an M.A. and taught High School English for a few years and finally Job Corp.  Because of my continual search for truth,  I did not stay with any one career.  I had a paint contracting business for many years that allowed me to be independent while taking time off to travel to India and pursue my spiritual interest.  The lesson is autonomy permits pursuing your love and not being a slave to someone else's love, obligation and business plan.

A dear friend and coworker whom I loved like a brother painted many houses with me.  One day an injured bird came around to our job site and stayed for several days. I told him that someone he knew from the past was dying and wanted to say goodbye.  His father whom he hadn't seen in years came to say goodbye because he was dying of a fatal disease.  The owner of the house did not believe this story however no American Indian would dismiss this casually.  Birds are often messengers as they fly close to heaven.  The Tibetan Master Dhwal Khul states that devas (angels) experience the physical plane through birds.  Aristophanes play, "The Birds" makes allusions as to their omens. Augury was very much in vogue in the Third Century of the common era when Porphyry opined 'that the gods, though silent, give signs and the birds divine their meaning quicker than men and so inspired give warning by whatever means in their capacity as heralds.  

  I learned the difference between the psychic and the spiritual world.  The psychic or astral plane is a “sandwich” layer between the physical plane and the spiritual plane; ergo, it can harbor both positive and negative forces.  The spiritual plane, of course, is the source of the positive direction of the soul.  I learned to trust  my soul intuition throughout my life.  Sometime in my thirties, as I was walking on a stretch of Virginia Beach, I heard the voice of my father who died when I was only eleven.  He told me to watch out for my mother.  I heard the words cardiac arrest and pulmonary edema.  I went home and saw that she was suffering from the flu so I took her to a doctor who gave her some antibiotics.  I had to go to work so I left her knowing that my brother and sister was nearby.  When I came home I found out that she was rushed to the hospital and was told by the attending physician that she had cardiac arrest and pulmonary edema.

Later on I had a relationship with a nurse or an RN.  I saw her M.S. (Multiple Sclerosis) condition before the doctors ever diagnosed her.  I saw the  covering around her nerves (myelin sheath)  damaged.  This sensitivity was always painful.  First, people dismiss the insight, making fun of it and do not take it seriously.  This meant they were not taking me seriously.  This impacted my self image.  Second, I could not heal the person, or this is what I thought.  I learned later that the information, insight, warning is part of the healing process. and most individuals must heal themselves; however, this does not diminish the pain I experienced when these sort of events occurred.  This gift often left me awash in emotions like a sea of trouble with no land in sight.  

  While living with this beautiful lady I received a draft notice during the Vietnam War.  I became a conscientious objector  They refused that status and sent me to their army shrink who labeled me schizoid.  This was fairly typical of the times.  The nation was in a spiritual revival and many people, not just myself, were interested in matters that were considered crazy by conventional standards.  So, I suspect that many people reading this have experienced the same thing.  Authority perniciously labels those things they do not know or cannot accept; this is still done today.  I have no mental illness and many of you too are not mentally ill just because you believe in divine providence and experiences that are hard to describe to others.  Stereotyping can be a poisonous process.  The military doctors had no diagnostic code for psychics or astrologers, so they classed me as mentally ill.  It is ironic how often good benefits can derive from seemingly bad events.  It turned out I did not have to go to Vietnam and was thankful I did not have to engage in killing or other things that I would find far more distasteful and psychically disturbing.  

My spiritual odyssey took me in many directions. Astrology was and remains my first love. In my early twenties I went to New York City and listened to lectures from many astrologers and consumed hundreds books by many of them seeking to find the secrets of the astrological soul map.  I visited many Spiritualist Camps in the  U.S. but I always knew there was so much more. I took an interest in Eastern philosophy when I first read The Autobiography of a Yogi by Paramahamsa Yogananda. One night I was astral traveling and was flying over the  Bay of Bengal with a Spiritual guide and had a desire to be initiated by a guru from the Giri Mountain Order of Swamis.  The second I awoke the phone rang. It was a long time friend telling me that Swami Hariharianda Giri was visiting in  Arlington Va. and I was invited to come see him.   I was twenty nine years old.  I later learned that spiritual masters could do just about anything.

After reading The Holy man and the Psychiatrist by  Samuel H. Sandweiss I smelled jasmine coming from the book which I learned was Sai Baba’s signature. Another signature of Sai Baba is vibhutti which is called sacred ash.  I went to see him several times and changed my first name to Sai about twenty five years ago.   I embraced the best of all religions and hold only to truth.  I visit the ashrams of Swami Muktananda and Nityananda as well as Shiva Bali Yoga and many other Indian teachers in  India.

I embraced  the teaching of a Sufi master, Bawa Muhyiadeem in  Philadelphia.  I sought truth in The Holy Order of Mans, Mahakiri No Waza and many, many other light centers. There are some light centers that work co-creatively with nature and the consciousness of nature spirits like Findhorn and Perelandra. 

This is the age of fulfillment.  “In the last days it will be that I will pour out my Spirit upon all flesh, and your young men shall see visions….” (Acts 2:17-21)   It took me a long time to accept that I may have a gift that I can share with others and which others may   profit. I believe this is about S for our making. Free will exists within the multitude of small moments elaborated within our life context.  Consultations are probing, prodding and evocative for clients to reveal how they can maximize their choices within the multitude of minute moments that constitutes the context of their present life...